For those of you who didn't know, I used to be the vocalist in a band called Doom Dispenser, we mostly played industrial metal (like Tool) It has since disbanded but I thought I would show you my old logo design and some of the lyrics, if only so you can laugh at my lack of skills, lol...

This is our logo
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I came up with the idea and designed it myself without any references, prefab images, copying of anyone else's ideas, etc. Also with no help. The other threee members never wanted to help, even though they had the band started before I came along, lol.
It's a water fountain, but instead of dispensing water, it dispenses nuclear waste. Not exactly a "doom dispenser" but I don't know what doom looks like so I assumed it looks like nuclear waste... or maybe nitroglycerin... XD

This is the original album cover for Architect of a Continuum
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The idea is that there is an entity, called "The Architect", who created and maintains the continuum (the universe and all of its related alternate realities, parallels, time settings, etc.) And his hand is shown on the album cover, holding an abstract shape which is supposed to represent a piece of the universe.
The binary numbers are there because I think of cyberspace as a sort of alternate reality, if you want to laugh at me for that feel free to, I know it's funny but I'm an inventor so I'm not supposed to think like a normal person anyway, lol.

The lyrics to the song "The Architect"
I'm picking up the pieces of our broken civilization
I'm repairing our fallen civilization...

Destiny has called on me
To rebuild this foundation shattered long ago
This world is broken
Our antics are disrupting the flow
Nothing has been done for so long, it shows
The damage is standing out among what is left of the structure
Every time another great plan is cast aside
Another gives up, another segment of hope falters
It is time we learned, hope is not refined
This planet we live on, this land we share
is so twisted and disfigured, yet nobody cares
Can they not see the pain
Caused by the error of their ways
Or do they forget all those they have slain

I'm picking up the pieces of our broken civilization
I'm repairing our fallen civilization...

The architect, Emerge from the devastation
Reverse the pattern of our degeneration
Undo the universe's disintegration
It is his mission to look past the desolate paradise
See the potential in what we have left to decompose
A brighter future grows inside everyone
Changing and growing, yet nothing is done
With the time and patience, even the most
Damaged and destroyed can arise to our hopes
And become whole once again
The architect, this inventive madman
Holds the future within
To destroy him is self destruction

Unite with what was once infected
To discover the problem, release the infliction
Our minds intertwined with dilemmas of this kind
To discover the answer around that dark corner
The Architect unlocks the most complex solutions
He is the key to a more powerful future
A greater integrity shining through the empty

I'm picking up the pieces of our broken civilization
I'm repairing our fallen civilization...

The architect, Emerge from the devastation
Reverse the pattern of our degeneration
Undo the universe's disintegration
It is his mission to look past the desolate paradise
See the potential in what we have left to decompose
A brighter future grows inside everyone
Changing and growing, yet nothing is done
With the time and patience, even the most
Damaged and destroyed can arise to our hopes
And become whole once again
The architect, this inventive madman
Holds the future within
To destroy him is self destruction

The Architect is every one of us.
It's about how people try to be "normal", and to do that they put aside their inner creativity and let society think for them, and doing this is destroying The Architect because we all contain a little bit of him, in our minds, in our inventive ingenuity and creativity. And the world is suffering because without The Architect, nothing is left to engineer and improve the quality of our future.
So we have to give up the concept of normal, unlock The Architect from our inner creativity, and start engineering a better future for ourselves and out descendants.

The song "Discover"
What have they locked away
In the darkest corners, outside of society
What exactly do they know that they
Won't tell us until it's too late
As we stand and watch the pieces fall away
Can we not comprehend the damage
Inflicted on our future by the mistakes of our past
How long will it last

I have to find the answers
Have to know the truth
Discover what they don't want me to
I have to uncover this secret prospect
Lift the cover, expose the contents of the file
I have to find the answers
Have to know the truth
Discover what they don't want me to
I have to uncover this secret prospect
Lift the cover, expose the contents of the file

We can no longer live in fear
This can no more remain unclear
I don't care about consequence
The world cannot handle the suspense
Of finding what's malfunctioned, corrupted
What is unknown, remaining to be discovered

I have to find the answers
Have to know the truth
Discover what they don't want me to
I have to uncover this secret prospect
Lift the cover, expose the contents of the file
I have to find the answers
Have to know the truth
Discover what they don't want me to
I have to uncover this secret prospect
Lift the cover, expose the contents of the file

Apocalypse and failure will mean nothing either way
No longer can we let the horrendous times stay
When we are on the wake of a huge discovery
About a person who knows that someone is hiding something, and inside what is hidden is the cure for our problems. This mostly reminds me of the government, lol

The song "Obliterate"
Halflife device
Cannot suffice
I hate this feeling
The burning inside
Watching lives break
What will they create
When time stops the quake
What will they remake
My need for annihilation
Is too powerful to be fake
Feel the decimation
As my dark hatred awakens

Your world will suffer beneath
The soles of my feet
Faster and faster
I watch the structure shatter
And they will never be able
To pick up the pieces
Or rewrite their leases on life
Fate calls on me to incinerate
Obliterate
And watch my friends' lives dissipate
You cannot break down my hate
Or change your fate

When the world ends
What will be left
At long last I have crept
Into the glee you've kept
The damage is done
And what I've become
Will tear out your spine
Will kill you in time
Faster and faster
The innocent minds splatter
Forever the pieces will smolder
It has more Static-X's style than Tool's... And less meaning.
It's about the overpowering need to destroy in the viewpoint of a killer.

"Aftermath"
Await nothing
Alone in the shadows, with my memories stalking me
Like birds of prey, as I remain unable
To force them away
I cannot cast aside the horror of my encounter
With this wreaking walk through the darkness
And into the abyss of my failure
Carrying the weight of the world, its hopes and dreams
Into the neverending chasm
Await forgiveness I can never find in me
Await nothing

Await the ending of this terrible nightmare
Walking the aftermath of damage I've inflicted
Falling away from success that is right there
And into the path of the downfall of everything
See all of my hard work, all been for nothing
The pain of my failed responsibility
Dragging me down, taking me down...
Watching the suffering of the ones I disappointed
Aftermath of the devastation I have brought
Wishing that everything would end now
But knowing I can't end it
Because the failed still depend on me
Await nothing
Await the escape of this aftermath

Aftermath of a destruction I brought on those I serve
Hopes fall away from people who trusted me
And I know that I will always be trapped
In the swirl of fragments remaining from this obliteration
Unable to escape the failure I've caused
Chained around my neck, I carry the memory
Feeling the decay haunting me
Trapped in the terror as the if time itself paused
Within the waves of darkness that show me the decimation
No path out of this despair has been mapped
The entanglement of my fate will never set me free
And when they destroy me I will have what I deserve

Await the ending of this terrible nightmare
Walking the aftermath of damage I've inflicted
Falling away from success that is right there
And into the path of the downfall of everything
See all of my hard work, all been for nothing
The pain of my failed responsibility
Dragging me down, taking me down...
Watching the suffering of the ones I disappointed
Aftermath of the devastation I have brought
Wishing that everything would end now
But knowing I can't end it
Because the failed still depend on me
Await nothing
Await the escape of this aftermath
Has a much more dark, cold feeling than most of Doom Dispenser's lyrics. It's about what it's like to be a leader and make a bad decision, then watch how the negative effects harm everybody who was working under your command. I'd rather not explain much more about this... let's just say I became an anarchist to get away from the consequences of bad decisions made in leadership. Still, if anybody ever needs a leader again, I'll stand and take action... I'd rather face the devastation again than the knowledge that I could have done something and I didn't...

"Myself"
When pain kills and emotion devastates
Can we really take a side
Or just watch it all die
We are so like machines in a way
'Cause when you take it all away
What is left but the capacity
To destroy

I know what you want
To restructure my foundation
You say you want what's best for me
But this is condemnation
To live your perfect past
Which is my dreaded future
Enjoy it while it lasts
For I will rip the sutures
And spill the parts
Before this new life starts

I don't want what you're turning me into
I don't want to see myself becoming you
I don't care what you think you're gonna do
'Cause I know I'll never let it go through
I don't want what you're turning me into
I don't want to see myself becoming you
I don't care what you think you're gonna do
'Cause I know I'll never let it go through

Do you have no understanding of individuality
Can you see beyond your fantasy
That I do not have your mentality
Parents try to protect you
But they can damage you, ravage you
Tear you apart
Hatred burning in your heart
They will never leave me be
Because they have a fantasy
A plan, a future
That I never wanted to complete

I don't want what you're turning me into
I don't want to see myself becoming you
I don't care what you think you're gonna do
'Cause I know I'll never let it go through
I don't want what you're turning me into
I don't want to see myself becoming you
I don't care what you think you're gonna do
'Cause I know I'll never let it go through

I am myself, I am myself
I am myself, I am myself
I am not for you to define
Why don't you resign
Since I am myself!
Depicts the viewpoint of a child whose parents didn't get their dream future, so they try to change the child to give him their dream future, but the child has different plans for his dream future and doesn't want what they're trying to do for him.

"Twisted Mind"
Another victim handed over to me
Dying man in agony
Another chance to unleash my rage
Break apart, let it start
Operate the death cage
It's pleasing to watch the suffering
Of those who control underlings
They want to shape us into things
That follow without questioning
But they will never take me down
I will always find my way around
This system of standards
And counter it with physical hazards

No psychology can repair the damage to my twisted mind
All that matters now is wrecking what I find
The destroyer in me has risen to the surface
Excitement consumes me as one more body lands in the fiery furnace

I will cast you to flames
You know that you are to blame

It's your day to die
No longer will we rely
On systems programmed in our minds
A set of orders and of times
Tell the children, difference is a crime
The world is a digusting place, I find
We cannot put the past behind
This is why society resigns
And is so willing to comply
Rather than stand and defy
The fence you built around our eyes
To decieve with your lies

No psychology can repair the damage to my twisted mind
All that matters now is wrecking what I find
The destroyer in me has risen to the surface
Excitement consumes me as one more body lands in the fiery furnace

I will cast you to flames
You know that you are to blame

For everything that has gone wrong
In our lives as your scheme has carried on
But don't you know I'm standing
I'm fighting your commanding

No psychology can repair the damage to my twisted mind
All that matters now is wrecking what I find
The destroyer in me has risen to the surface
Excitement consumes me as one more body lands in the fiery furnace

I will case you to flames
You know that you are to blame
About a person who rejected society and is now considered insane, trying to explain how corporate scumbags built the system to herd men like sheep and keep us under control while they gain power, but every time he tries to lay out the facts, he's just called insane one more time.

"Disconnect"
Alone in this mysterious prison
I have been waiting for eternity
Searching for something I cannot define
But somehow know will set me free
Something has to hold the key
To unlock the door of reality
And let my mind wander from this container

Disconnect
Watch the pieces of my sanity as they slowly break away
The bars of this prison are finally splintering
This new discovery is surely disconnecting me
Severing my last connection to reality
No more am I a conduit to channel all this energy
Through that vast, expansive cage we like to call society
Again I feel my hold on this life slip through my fingers
I will begin a new existence of more power and vigor

It's not that I'm incapable
No matter what the others say
I do not have capacity
To follow your routine all day
I know now what is beyond
The bars of my prison
I will break free and exit
The cage that is society

Disconnect
The fragments of my cage are slowly falling astray
No longer must I reside in the despair of society
Everything I found out here is surely disconnecting me
Breaking the last wire that held me to reality
No more am I one more pawn for manipulating
At long last I have been completed
I can sense the concept of realism falling away from me
And I will make no attempt to create another connection
Depicts my journey as I became an inventor, discovering a world beyond realism, and finding all the new possibilities which disconnected me from reality.


Yeah, yeah, have fun laughing at my lack of skill... Don't choke on your spit.

It's pretty good. I'm starting a band in which I play drumset. :Drummer: Were going to cover Twisted Sisters "Were Not Gonna Take It" first. Do you have any recordings of your band that you can put up?

I wish I did... the mic on my camcorder is a piece of crap, it makes me sound like a mouse, and I don't have a squeaky voice either... I yell at people in German all the time so you know I'm damn good at growling, lol. My tape recorder is a piece of crap too, I just use it to prove that Mom gave me permission to do something she denies she gave permission for later

Oh, and I have to give part credit to my friend Kim Ervin for the lyrics of "Obliterate", as she came up with the line "Your world will suffer beneath the soles of my feet"